i woke up from my sleep thinking when will it finish,

I woke up thinking what the future will bring to me,

I woke up thinking when will i ever get back to earth and not drown in my own world .

Just realising from those tears that i teared before has now makes me stronger than ever,

I’m believing in myself again,

That feels so in place,

Instead of being lost and scared .

I’m getting back up again,

And erasing all negativity far far from me,

And never come back to that situation ever again .

Love the in place feeling :)

Jia you ! Go fighting Nurul :)

Love ,

Nurul

David Choi Live in Singapore

Was on 22nd of june 20ll at 7.30 pm

I went there with my one of my BGF named fiqqy . He was awesome ! Totally cute .

He sang very well eventhough he is sick got sore throat that day . He sang almost all of the song in his both album . I totally enjoyed it . Every bit of it . Its like the most unforgettable memories ever .

For those who doesn’t know him check out him on youtube at davidchoimusic .

JB trip

On Saturday dated 25/6/20ll

My family and i decided to make a trip to Johor Bahru , Malaysia .

Went to have lunch buffet at Puteri Pacific Hotel , it was awesome . Nice food and stuff especially the dessert . Was superbly delicious . Ate until full .

We chillax at City Square Shopping centre and Kota Raya . After that went to watch KL gangster at city square . First time watching movie in a foreign country . The whole experience were pretty awesome i guessed .

That’s all i’m going to confessed ,

Love ,

Nurul :)

I hate the feeling of negativity it is so unpleasant ,

It sounds as if i’m smelling a bad scent ,

That doesn’t make sense .

All my life ,

I feel as if I’ve done nothing .

That feeling is so depressing .

The word nothing ,

Really make me feel like I wanna puke ,

Don’t even feel like taking another look .

I feel so imbalanced with my life lately ,

Due to lack of attention and love ,

Words above sound so saddist ,

I’m hunger of motivation .

I keep saying but no action,

That’s kinda true ,

But deep inside my heart ,

I know what i wanna do .

I wanna sing to crowds ,

I wanna dance to the floor ,

I wanna act as if there’s no tommorow ,

To drown my sorrow .

I miss all the people that have left me ,

past on , rally see

I may seem happy outside ,

but the truth no one knows .

No one not even the closest one .

My mind is always thinking ,

It thinks as if theres no tommorow ,

It’s making me feel so negative .

When I am about to get better ,

There’s always thoughts that distract me ,

It leads me to no where ,

It can only bring me down .

That’s all i can confessed .

These is written originally by Nurulsyahidah

All rights reserved

Love ,

Nurul

hahahahaha !

My dearest tumblr ,

How i wish that you could be mine instantly ,

How i wish that you could notice me ,

How i wish i could be the one for you ,

How i wish that what i can get what i want ,

How i wish that you could speak those three words to me ,

How i wish that you would ask me out ,

To that someone

love,

nurul

love chocolate

bought 1 pair of jeans and 1 pair of black pants last sunday . i tried on the guy size . Can fit but a bit big uhh …

Firstly , i tried on the jeans size 35 can fit in but a bit tight . So up a bit the size , tried it on and it fits perfectly on that day when i tried it on .

So surprisingly today , I wanted to try on my new jeans to school and realised that its way to big . It is size 36 by the way . Straight cut some more .

I feel a bit weird uhh with the jeans , so tosolve the problem i’ve decided to alter it soon .

I can say i’m feeling a teeny bit shitty . But , I’m trying my best to keep up with my diet . eventhough my best is not my best enough but at least i did tried right . Maybe , it’s just me . So I guess i know what to do when i’m feeling “fat” again . I will just shut my mouth and calm myself down .

Why do i feel annoyed by my surroundings ? Maybe because i’m insecure bout my weight . I really want to look very stylish in my own way , but i can’t yet coz of my low self-eestem . I must try to build it up slowly.

That’s all i can brag bout today .

toodles .

Love ,

Nurul

what i want to write also i dunno haha

what a sentence to start of , hehe

A proper sentence to start of should be hey or dear tumblr ,

I am doing/feeling quite well . But not the past few days coz i’m down with flu and my prepaid is left with zero .

eventhough i’m feeling the negative vibes again , but it’s not as hard/tough as i had it before. I’m working on it anyway so ya no worries .

Can’t wait to get bak to real life again . Been feeling quite lifeless somehow haha .

I’m overall feeling balanced somehow . weather getting hotter and hotter .

My hair is getting longer yeah ! haha . Work it out ! Try harder ! Jia you!

Love ,

nurul

Firstly i wanna say that i’m not so inspired . But i’m still sketching out so ya , no worries . I’m still doing my work . 

Listening to electro is so not me , but i kinda like the genre a bit . Cause it’s like kinda upbeat and i guess that it’s cool . Mashing up song and stuff . I wish i can do that , that’ll be just great .

Okay , back to the topic . Why do i write such a title it’s because its the fact . That the time given to do the project it’s not enough . I scared i can’t pull it off . I must try .

Do my very best as i can .

That’s all that i can confess for now .

Love chocolate like truck loads ,

nurul

Mini project has been assigned , and i’m kinda stuck on logo . Did a bit of sketch but guess nothing nice come out of it . i’m so frustrated . With myself and the way i work . I’m so enthusiastic to do the project but not so the next min . I’m questioning myself why do i feel like this like almost all the time .

Obsess with my weight like again , feeling all shitty bout myself all over again and doing nothing tod improve or lessen the weight . I’m just plainly brooding all about it .

This is total crap . why do i feel that way again , I don’t believe i’m feeling it again . i’m so out of focus these days . Nothing feel right at the moment . But i have to force myself to get back up again . Fill myself with more positive vibes again . I’m going through the cycle again ! I don’t believe this . I must get a hold of myself instead of letting it get me .

I must learn to except myself , instead of filling myself with more food . I’ll get worst . So i must control it .

that’s all i wanna confess

love,

Nurul

i don’t understand why some people didn’t mean what they say . I’m not like talking bout anyone here i’m just stating the facts , that human can be so heartless and ignorance about people feelings . i mean it’s like come on la , get a freaking life .

Reflect on yourself first before you shoot at others . It’s basically the fact that nobody’s perfect in this world . So human , stop being to proud of yourself . Proudness can turn into ego and when it turn into ego it can become a bad thing .

At least , my conscience is clear . Do take note of people sensitivity . Some people don’t mind being sarcastically towards each other but some people do . As a human being myself am sensitive towards somethings . We must learn how to accept people as they are . No point arguing bout it if he/she is like that . Maybe that’s their character as it’s own .

Human also have their limitation of tolerance . Don’t play with fire , or else you’ll get burnt . I know people change , but is how you take their changes in a positive way or the opposite way .

Doesn’t mean you are good at something means you’re great , doesn’t mean you’re weak at something you’re stupid .

No life doesn’t work that way .

Help those in need and don’t ignore people that is very weak , in fact guide them instead of mocking at them .

Words can be a killer if not spoken the right way

Think bout it and reflect

lovechocolate,

Nurul

I’m listening to katy perry like right now

I wanna have more guy friends to interact with hehe , not saying i wanna flirt i just wanna know what’s their thought and their character is .

Analysing character is like my favourite thing (i guess) haha sound so funny .

Sometimes i can just crapped without even thinking . haha

get a topic to post about

Today i dun feel like doing anything

I just wanna lay in my bed

Dun feel like clicking up my phone so leave a message at the tone

This is just some random thing that i did haha :)

okay la i shall stop posting .

Lovechocolate,

Nurul