Thoughts has been running deep through my mind

Sometimes I do feel that i’m “sick” and such

I will always say negative things bout myself and cry

Cry as much as i can like a crybaby

How do i wish i’m as genius as einstein

Not trying to seek any attention just typing out my thoughts

All this years in my life I believe that i’ve achieve nothing

And I feel bad about it

Eversince I got my last broke up

My life totally change , I’ve grown fat i eat a lot (whenever i’m stress)

Simple to say i’m obsessed by my weight .

i dun seem to do everything right when my mind is running thoughts .

Crying won’t solve the problem . i don’t want to be a burden to somebody

Everybody has their own problems .

I can’t rely on someone to handle my problems that’s being unfair and selfish .

i’m getting all emotional down here , not like anyone gonna read it . I wanna wear nice clothes like how good figure girls could wear . Everytime i look at my stomach i’ll ask myself why is it getting bigger ?

i hate to look at myself in the mirror it makes me go mad . I want to be beautiful .

I need positive vibes , i mean sincerity comments and not sarcastic comment .

Last time my classmate use to call me fat and such and I straight away don’t eat .

Like teacher say have faith and change your mindset .

Don’t say quit.

Pen down my thoughts and i’ll be fine i hope so . i want to be happy

happiness , happiness come with hard work

i need to settle my emotions before i get back to work . Find objective and set goals .

That’s all thoughts

Lovechocolate,

Nurul