bought 1 pair of jeans and 1 pair of black pants last sunday . i tried on the guy size . Can fit but a bit big uhh …

Firstly , i tried on the jeans size 35 can fit in but a bit tight . So up a bit the size , tried it on and it fits perfectly on that day when i tried it on .

So surprisingly today , I wanted to try on my new jeans to school and realised that its way to big . It is size 36 by the way . Straight cut some more .

I feel a bit weird uhh with the jeans , so tosolve the problem i’ve decided to alter it soon .

I can say i’m feeling a teeny bit shitty . But , I’m trying my best to keep up with my diet . eventhough my best is not my best enough but at least i did tried right . Maybe , it’s just me . So I guess i know what to do when i’m feeling “fat” again . I will just shut my mouth and calm myself down .

Why do i feel annoyed by my surroundings ? Maybe because i’m insecure bout my weight . I really want to look very stylish in my own way , but i can’t yet coz of my low self-eestem . I must try to build it up slowly.

That’s all i can brag bout today .

toodles .

Love ,

Nurul